Forever_Fantasy

sobsob

2006-12-10T12:04:00.000+08:00

10th Dec.
Today is the tenth day of the month.
Days passes day, we are moving towards another year in 22 days...2007..

SO sad...
Today i went online, i read ppl's mail...
i read till i cry...
the story is so touching...
of a gal's love to the boi...

送給你
如果你愛她,就不要輕易說分手
幸運草戀人
> 女孩:『求求你,不要討厭我好不好?』女孩流著淚對男孩說。
> 男孩眼睜睜看著女孩,不發一語。
> 男孩不知該如何開口,其實他對女孩已經失去了感覺。
> 只說了一句~『妳能找到比我更好的!』
> 之後便轉身離去,留下女孩在原地。女孩失去了堅強的勇氣,頓時放聲哭泣。
> 女孩決定離開這令她難過的城市,因為這個城市中充斥的他與她的回憶。她決定試著忘記過去的點點滴滴,
> 今天起的她是另一個重新的開始。
> 她留下來的是給男孩的一封信,用綠色幸運草圖案點綴的信紙。
> 給我心愛的你:
>> 我坐在頂樓看著一片不算蔚藍的天空。
> 我相信我的天空不會像這樣的灰矇矇,就算沒有你。
> 因為愛你,所以我退出你的天空。
> 因為愛你,所以希望你過得快樂,過得更好。
> 因為愛你,所以我選擇離開。
> 其實,我知道你心裡選擇的是她。只是我一直不肯放棄,一直迷戀著你。
> 總是傻傻的想有天或許你會看見我的付出,或許...我還有一絲絲的機會。
> 就算機會再渺茫,我也不願輕易放棄。但如今,我的不放棄可能造成你的負擔。
> 我不要成為你的負擔~!所以我選擇離開。
> 我用我對你的愛,祝你過的幸福。用愛的祝福,除了是我的真心,還帶著心痛。
> 但我會帶著心痛一起離開。我離開你的天空,也請你退出我的天空...
> 愛你的女孩
> 男孩並不是不愛著女孩,是因為男孩得了血癌。
> 他知道,女孩跟他在一起;不會有永遠的幸福。
> 他寧願現在讓女孩恨他,也不願讓女孩在失去他的傷痛裡迷失自我。
> 男孩相信他所心愛的女孩會找到另一個更愛她的男孩。
> 男孩握著手中那張用四葉幸運草做成的書籤,這是女孩給他的。他對著幸運草許下願望,
> 他要求的;只是希望女孩忘記她,讓他離開她的生活。
> 女孩所誤會的人,是他在國外唸書的妹妹。
> 他要求妹妹與他演這場讓女孩不得不離開他的戲。
> 失去女孩的男孩,也失去了重心,他思念著女孩與他的點點滴滴。但是,他沒有勇氣找回女孩。
> 看著自己的頭髮一根根因為化療而落下,看著自己的臉龐逐漸的蒼白憔悴;看著自己的生命漸漸的失去。
> 他覺得現在的他已經沒有資格讓女孩深深的愛著,躺在病床上的他;已失去活下去的力量。
> 男孩的父母知道自己的兒子已經沒有希望,從不肯放棄到現在的漸漸接受。心疼兒子
> 除了病痛之外,還有失去最愛的心痛。
> 唯一想做的,只是希望兒子能再見女孩一面,
> 希望他不要留任何的遺憾,希望兒子能帶著微笑離開人間。
> 男孩的父母打聽到女孩的老家,到女孩的老家想請求女孩去見兒子一面。
> 但是...
> 女孩的父母告訴男孩的父母,女孩自殺死了;
> 因為女孩的父母原先就不贊成她們倆人在一起。
> 女孩為了和男孩在一起,和家裡的人鬧得不愉快;
> 甚至負氣離開家裡。
> 後來男生的離開,讓她頓時不知自己該何去何從;
> 覺得已經沒有屬於女孩的地方。
> 沒有人支持,沒有人鼓勵的女孩選擇了離開人間。
> 帶著男孩給她的美好回憶離開,讓美好的回憶陪伴著她。
> 女孩的父母給了男孩父母一張綠色幸運草書籤及一封信,
> 並說:『這應該是女孩留給男孩的。』
> 男孩的父母把東西交給了男孩,男孩看著信裡的內容;
> 掉下了眼淚。
> 『心愛的,我帶著你的愛離開。』整張信裡只有這一句話。
> 而男孩的心,早已傷痛碎裂;男孩要求去女孩的墳前向女孩告別。他要求父母給他一點時間和女孩獨處,
他在墳前告訴著女孩實話。告訴著女孩:『如果有下輩子,我願補回今生我虧欠你的愛。』
> 男孩拿著兩張一對的綠色幸運草書籤,放在女孩的墳前。
> 之後抱著女孩的墓碑,頭用力的墓碑磕下;血染著女孩的墓碑男孩死了。
> 雙方的父母同意讓彼此合葬在一起。希望來世的他們,能得到永恆的真愛;不再分
> 離。墳前長滿不是雜草,是一片綠色的酢漿草。就這麼鋪滿在他們的墓上。
> 他們在綠色幸運草的幸運下永遠的相愛著。
> 在四葉幸運草的祝福相長眠。他們再也不會分開。
> 如果你(妳愛他)她,不要輕易的說分手。
> 自由的幸福,是淡藍色的;
> 甜蜜的幸福,是粉紅色的;
> 溫暖的幸福,是橘黃色的。
> 「幸福」是一顆夢想的種子,
> 需要用「生命的熱情」去灌溉;
> 「幸福」不是靠別人給的, 而是要認真抓住、用心選擇!
> 「愛」字收藏一顆完整的心 -代表珍惜 ,「情」字依靠一顆站著的心 -代表陪伴
> 愛情裡若沒有這2顆心.. 不能叫做愛情 !
> 難得一見...所以送給你!
> 這是傳說中的幸運草~
> 傳說看到它就會一生都幸福!
> 給我的好友、朋友、同學、親戚或是萍水相逢,
> 甚至是不認識的人,都能得到一生的幸運!
> 如果,你當他是你的朋友,就請你將這株替人帶來好運的幸運草,轉送給他吧!
> 朋友是一輩子的,所謂的〝有難同當有福同享〞,
> 而你,已經得到轉寄給你信的人的幸運了,
> 再將這份幸運,分享給更多的需要得要幸運的人吧!
> *幸運草物語*
★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★
> ☆轉給1個人︰學業順利
> ☆轉給2個人︰身體健康
> ☆轉給3個人︰平平安安
> ☆轉給4個人︰去除霉運
> ☆轉給5個人︰心想事成
> ☆轉給6個人︰人緣提升
> ☆轉給7個人︰事業有成
> ☆轉給8個人︰招來幸福
> ☆轉給9個人︰金錢多多
> ☆轉給10個人︰愛情順利
> ★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★
> 因為
> 思念與被思念都是一種幸福
> 如果可以
> 我想每刻都裝滿
> 對妳的思念
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The story is so touching isn't it??

Disappointed

2006-12-06T22:20:00.000+08:00

6 Dec 2006...
I was really really disappointed...
Sometimes things doesn't need to spell out,
the heart will know by itself...

Life was not that great...
Things and problems come one at a go..
Stress was brought down by it...

I will forget everything..
A no feelings...................

Hopefully I can find a job soon..
Hope to hear good news...

so happy..

2006-11-17T13:59:00.000+08:00

12th of nov, i was really very unhappy...everyone can speak out from their throat whilst i've to swallow down all to my gullet...Really very sad....Even have to confide to others i've to be careful with wat i speak...really tedious to be human...even thought of ending such life...I sent to others..i wanna find someone to speak with but couldn't...when being asked i don't dare to say anything...all the bitterness
I smsed __ ...i den realise it's not over yet...really not over..i clearly knew it..though contacted for a period..it's still as strong as ever...I said don ever leave...okie by it...but confusion of it mislead my emotion n mood...

Till yesterday 16 NOV..i was somehow lost in the industrial..i couldn't find the job's place...i sms again...he's e strength for me..my energy...bouncing hard in my heart when i saw in senoko thinking...in the end i saw bus stop..i hopped up the bus tat's arriving...safely move out of the remote area...i couldn't find the place, thus forget it...
Today, i called several companies...sent my resumes to them..Finally a company called saying that they received my resumes n will hand to the person in charge n will contact me the place...Really happy about it...My ever first job....With the income i'll have i can help the family financial to lighten up somehow...

Hopefully dad's company will survive on n on...tender's job will come in....Hope dad's job will prosperous for him..
As for me,I hope to get good grade n good career for now .
For others,hope everyone will be Good with stuffs like money,business,relationship,and studies Last but not least World Peace.

Life

2006-10-25T20:16:00.000+08:00

So unhappy abt life...
Everything that has promise is all lying...
Beneath under Man is lies...
Promises that once made,had been break...
The trust between two has break...
The words once said became doubt...
The true is beneath the thinking...
The love is to be blind...

Everyone thought life is gd...
Everyone thought life is bad
Which is right??
Everyone thought their life is good because they've everything they want...
what they aspire come true...while some thought their life is good as it is because they know how to zhi zu (contented) etc
While some thinks that their life is bad because they've nothing they want..what they aspire don't fulfill...while some are not contented with it...etc

To me...i think my life is bad...not because i m not contented..but i do not have the contented stuff to fill me up neither i got things i aspired to come true...
I've nothing to be contented but i have things that will make me upset...So heavy burdens that weight me down...my shoulders are getting heavier...
Some thought that i am happy..i've nothing to worry..but actually it is not..I've many things to worry...really alot...I do not feel happy at all...
At home,i've noone to talk with..noone to pour out my feelings...to listen to my things...everything people said to me...said what i m ...
I've to swallow it down my throat..Even things are not my fault,I've to swallow down...
I do not feel good at all..Some times,i couldn't take it and i cried...people doesn't know e reason why i cry will say me etc...i hate it!!!Sometimes i do not feel like wanting to be a living stuff...I hate hiding stuffs...So so so many things happened.....
But all i want now is hopefully my dad can get a job...burden can be lighter...since this yr...i've changed...i couldn't get back my old self...i've lost myself..lose my way..even that..i've to bite my teeth through everything...Hopefully..................

12 Oct2006

2006-10-12T17:17:00.000+08:00

Hmm...so tired after a day of revision without dear's accompanion...yesterday he taught me e revision stuff but he kept saying he dono...actually he knew wat to do but he's really very lazy..don wanna use his brain...hmmm just like mine???
Hee...
Today, around 10 like that,he went out le...abandon me in singapore to go back m'sia...haha...he wanna go back be good boy not like me being naughty gal...haizs...hee...But He'll be back tonight,together with the mee i likes to eat in Malaysia..haahaahaa ~~

Around 4plus in the noon,i msged me but he nv reply...for damm long..so i decided to call his m'sia hp..but to my surprise,it was his mom picking up the call..haha~ scare me...She told me that he'd went out to repair the com...but think he didn't bring the phone with him...aiya...later must teach him a lesson...humph...
Today is such a boring day....Mummy ask me to buy soup bone to cook soup till now also haven buy...later den go buy lor...moreover the weather is really warm...really hate to go out...But later i will drag myself there...wanna buy chocolate back too...haha~

Recently,i've been eating aloy of fried stuffs...Mac supper...quite unhealthy n fattening...scare that my wt will increase...wah will become a fat lady...but no lor..no increase wt no increase fat ..but indeed...maintaing the wt...somemore no exercise...
Haha...I promise i must go do exercise...tmr is the day!!!!!!
Going to gym...with my sis n jia..to exercise..lose fat plan !!! Train up ~!!

Lantern Festival--6.10.06

2006-10-07T16:20:00.000+08:00

Hmm...Yesterday was once a yr Lantern Festival...i'd an encounter of personal...hmmm It was the third time i went there...opps!! Forgot to mention,It's Chinese Garden..The first time i went there was,as a bridemaid accompanying the bride for photo-taking..
The second time was going with my aunt and cousin they all..and that was then the last time i took pic with them..
This time is the third time,this is the first time I brought Jia to Chinese Garden as a title bf..
Yesterday,Chinese Garden was crowded with people..ren shan ren hai...
The moment we entered the gate of Chinese Garden,we immediately went up to the pagoda with one big breath...storey and storeys...steps and steps...till the top of the pagoda without stopping...The moment of exhaustion vanishes when we are on the top of the pagoda viewing the Hazing spectacular view of the garden...
When we are going down..slowly down with steps...as well,many china citizen came to Chinese Garden...They are also walking up to the top of the pagoda...
Then, we went to take photographs...as we walk,we saw a artist drawing protraits of human feature..it was vividly real..The entire Gardeen we walked 2,3 times...ah huh...tiring mmm...foot also pain...haha but the feeling feels great...and there were people guessing sentence,words etc...
Jiajia Hamster also bought me a twinkling light watch with luvs which i love it at one sight cox of the twinkling blue love...
Mummy told me that yesterday's moon was the rounders...brighters..but hmm it's round..but not bright...it's somehow yellow-orange wor...and the place was hazing...wonder could it be.....

Hmmm okie...i will be stopping....Hope that next year Lantern Festival Decoration will be more spectaculating...

23th of sept

2006-09-23T19:54:00.000+08:00

oh...on the 19th of sept tuesday, i was very happy as my fren and i went to zoo.But this blog was not written when i was back as i was busy and didn't online..Most of all,my dear..he helped me with the housechore and looking after my sister when i wasn't at home...Thank you!!!But then,during the dinner,i didn't have lunch with my bunch of animal frens as i need to go home...hmmm...

The other days,was quite peaceful. My dear wasn't with me as he needs to work...yesterday he worked till 2.30am...wah...almost 3plus 4 den sleep...and this morning he went out at 7plus..barely had any sleep...really pity him.....hmmm
He promise to buy me something i wanna e~~ de...dono gt ma...DearDear..u promised me de..must buy for me hor...hee~~

So fast,we're getting into another month of anniversary...
So happy....Dear...
~G O R I L L A

Precious...BaoBao

2006-09-02T16:15:00.001+08:00

Nowadays,i'm feeling very sad..abt recent stuffs.
Firstly because someone didn't fulfill wat he promised me before.
Secondly was about my family stuffs.
Thirdly was about my studies.

1st: Jia didn't fulfill wat he had promised me.he told me that he will acc me after exams.But,eventually he did not,he went to find a job.Though i know he wants a job badly,buthe didn't tell me,most of it shouldn't had promised me.I don't like ppl to dishonour their promises as from young,the adults used to coax us and then they forget the promises they gave to us(children).Thus,i don wish ppl to treat their promises to me lightly.I don't object him working but hopefully he doesn't neglect me,balancing his priority.Hopefully he'll enjoy his work and doesn't feel stress as i do not want him to feel tired too.hai

2nd: Mom had left us for months and had been staying over at friend's hse.Really kinda sad abtit,as it is not a completion family.Though they had li hun but..haiz...works are being done by us.sometimes really feel exhausting for me.I then realise that being a "housewife" really not easy..it's very tiring.

3rd: Since mom left,i've little time for preparation of exam.Sometimes even to some extent that i'm feeling very tired and doesn't feel like studying,but i still perservence to do some revision...haix...

As these days,i've been feelin tired and he is stress with his exam,we'd frequent bickering but now we are ok.

Yesterday,dad,lynn,jia and I went to Chinatown to buy fish stuffs and some fishes back.we bought unique fishes with extraodinary colours n patterns.haha,so happy choosing many fishes.
Today,he went back to his M's hse and he msged me telling me that his dad reprimanded him for borrowing carfrom his cousin.I was feeling guilty for as the reason he borrowed the car from his cousin was becausemy whole family wanted to go M for shopping tmr...And now he's feeling down,i was feeling guilt abt it.I'm so missing abt him and feel pain for him.Hopefully he's alright and hopefully his dad and mom don't reprimand him anymore.Hope God Bless...

Today,So sad too...the fish i chosen yesterday didn't eat anything..she's like anti-social..doesn't mix ard with other fishes ,she's kinda shy-shy..haha..
So sad again...because the fishes we bought yesterday...two had passed away...so sad..
They said my shy shy fish sting one of the fish which had die..
My fish is GFish-murderer...haha..
But then,another fish was die..
but was not sting by my shy-shy fish,
it was killed by lynn's small nemo fish..
haha...my fish's name was cleared...!!!
Uh-huh...Forget to intro,
I've given my shy~shy fish a name...
Its name is shasha...
female..
one day old (from the day 01.09.06 we bought all the fishes)
Personalities of hers:--> Sweet, Shy, Protective of herself, last but not least,she's anti-social...

Yeah Day

2006-08-31T17:46:00.000+08:00

Hmmm,
Today is Teacher's Day.A day which i enjoyed very much after graduated from school.Quite a number of them turns up...

This morning had breakfast in school canteen,when buying food and drink..
Aunties said i had slim alot,in fact i don think so..cox no exercise or whatsoever,where will slim right,unlike sporty ppl..
haha well still thinks i m fat..aiya..Gals are like tat i guess...hmm

After Breakfast, we went up to the hall to watch concert and listening to the teacher's day speech given by Mrs Song.The concert organisation was abit dull and boring,but the atmosphere is still good and fun with guessing pics...
During the concert,I saw my ex classmates and schoolmates...They've really change alot...Prettier and more charming.hee

After the concert,we chatted with Mrs Chan,she thinks that wasting one yr of mine isn't worth.But i've no choice,noone knows.It's because i've got to take care of my younger sister,as mama has left usas she is still young,and she wasn't able to take care of her own self...and i've got to take up the responsibilty as a sister to do housechore etc..As well,retaking the subs,i just hope i can strive even better grades..

At twelve,(Mr Justin Timberlake)-->Nick given by Estella to Mr Justin...He "chased" us out of the school..haha just kidding..eventually he just ask us to go down to the first storey as the school will be closing and all teachers will be going out for a lunch feast..

Then,Huimin,Estella and I went to vista to buy drinks..Then,we went causeway point.Went shopping and taking neoprints..haha..funny pic in summer and toilet thrillthen we just jalan jalan ard causeway Juz then I saw my ex fren (khaliq) and we exchanged numas it has been a long time since we see each other.It's really surprising,he still remember me and we sat next each other in P5 bickering all sorts of stuff haha...

I really miss all my frens alot, both in primary and secondary school...hopefully can find a day to reunite with them...O..Provided everyone is free to go out..for a gathering..Do stay contact...

Prince....

2006-08-31T17:02:00.000+08:00

what is love? From what i heard from my frens they seemed to have suffered alot from relationship..as well i am same as them i also suffered from relationship..the taste of losing the loved one was indeed bitter...there's once people said the start and process of relationship or rather love are always sweet just like the season summer and spring while the fading of love or rather the love or relationship are the end which always bitter just like the season winter and autumn...I suffered alot from relationship..among these processes there's sweetness..there's bitter..there's salty...i cried alot for it...effort that once put in was blown away in a glance...no matter how i yearn it will come back to me..it wont...but when the time i don yearn anymore..it flows back to me like river...automatically..so weird and strange..but when that times come it is already too late...feeling have already faded... but sometimes..momentally will think back the past but wat can we do?? times have faded...feeling have faded...everything have change...things can never be reversed back jus as the same as youth and ages...i have had many unpleasant relationship experience...the feeling of being toyed is not fun...i'm a human not a doll or a ball...not a clothing inside the closet..i don wanna be too...the person i yearned for...whether he knows or not...i m not sure...for him...my feeling for him have never change...it is still glowing...but.......is there such chance? dono...i wanna my life to be lighten up rainbowfully with my sweetheart around...i don wanna lose to time..don wanna lose everything...don wan anything everything to fade away as time passes...i wanna treasure the times...i have with my love one...wanna share everything with him...Although i m still young there is still a long route for me to travel but i believe that i can find the true love...my dearest sweetheart..one day...no matter how young or old i am..i believe that everything is fated..predicted by GOd...but i also believe perservance and belief...we can do everything we can get wat we want as long as we want it...Lastly, i hope i can be with my sweetheart..my prince...May God Bless him to come to me as soon as possible...i will certainly wait...Meanwhile, i will study hard to achieve good grades....God and Angels bless me as i go along my lifelong route...

Reallie???

2006-08-31T16:59:00.000+08:00

when guys are in love , they become poor when girls are in love , they become pretty guys can forget , but cannot forgive girls can forgive , but cannot forget guys care most about the quantity of the lovegirls care most about the quality of the loveguys break up when they feel love from another girl girls break up when they feel seperated from her guy when guys are heartbroken , they try to forget her by going out with another girlwhen girls are heartbroken , they try to find his characteristics from another guy guys wish to be her first lovegirls wish to be his last love isn't it true ?